Please, pray for me. I would imagine that you are probably sick of reading about my hardships and whining. I really need a place to talk. If you know anyone who has gone through this and has advice, I would love to hear it. I don't know where to go from here.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Wow.
I think that we have probably hit bottom and then I get hit again. Dh went to the doctor last week and she gave him some meds. Things were seeming up a bit. The hard part was that he had a sperm check and it turns out at the moment, it is very low. Basically, either something is really wrong with him or we got totally lucky with Pk. It was devastating news. I tried to be strong for him and to downplay it (you will see the specialist and they will get to the bottom of it, this must be caused by your not sleeping and depression...). It really hit me yesterday what this might mean. It's hard not to cry. I don't know how I am going to to go to work today.
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Two things:
ReplyDelete1) There is every reason why it could actually be related to the other stuff going on - he could be all out of whack chemically, or if he's not eating, that is one system that could go into shutdown a bit, too, the same way that women stop menstruating if they are starving themselves. it could resolve itself as he gets back on his feet. conversely, of course, it could be contributing to his depression that fertility is an issue, but his psychiatrist would be able to help with that, I would imagine.
2) Martin had low sperm count, and it took them a few years to have R, I think, but it happened. I don't know what thye did, but I would think that now that they know that's the problem, they may have some ideas about things that could help. Does he already wear boxers instead of briefs, for a start? Anyhow, it's not insurmountable, I'm guessing.
I know you wanted to have your kids closer together, but with everything going on, it might take a bit of time to get everything back in order before moving forward. Mine are 4 years apart, and I love it that way, so it's okay, it really, is, if it's just a touch later. (Though I know you are a planner like me, and it's stressful and frustrating not to have things go that way, so I understand that those few words don't necessarily make you FEEL better.)